Lazy Saturday Afternoon Thoughts

Well, here I am again. Alone on a Saturday, praying that the baby will take her nap soon. I'm tired, and a little sad. My husband left for the day to go to another shooting match. I have no use for his hobby to be quite honest, and it's one of those things that both sides of the family have disagreements about. I only don't like it because I'm not familiar with the sport. Shooting, in my opinion, is very manly, and I happen to be somewhat of a girly-girl. Not completely but given a choice to shoot a gun or get my nails done, I would go with the nails. A lot prettier and not so noisy. I know some girls like guns, and that's cool. I say whatever makes you happy. So anyways, I'm alone half sitting, half laying on the couch, feeling a little sick. It seems like I just wrote that blog about me not wanting another baby right now, and look what happened. Pregnant. Again. I'll have to make a mental note to myself not to voice something that I'm not ready for, although I know that the Lord will not give me anything I can't handle. I guess He saw that I was ready for this, and so, here we are. I've somewhat surprised myself at the way I've been handling it so far though. It was hard to hear that I am pregnant again when I just got down to my almost-normal size, and that I am a bridesmaid in my sister's wedding this summer, and I'll be fat again. I never felt qualified to be a mother the first time, and I still don't feel qualified, but this time, I think I am at a good place in my life at least. My relationship with God is strong, my husband and I have a good strong relationship, and I think it's gonna be good for our family. A definite challenge, but what's life if not one big challenge? Apart from all of this, I am just trying to take one day at a time...