The Bigger Picture

I haven't been keeping up on writing as much as I would like to. Life seems to get in the way of me doing things that I love sometimes. However, since I haven't posted a blog in awhile, this means that I may just have a lot more to say!
So, what's been on my mind? In two words, too much. I find myself having interesting conversations with friends and family these days. I try to stay away from drama, but I don't know what it is about me; drama seems to find me on its own. All I want is a simple life with my family and have some good friends to enjoy it with. Sure, I've made some mistakes in my past that I'm not proud of, but who hasn't? I'm blessed with a family who still accepts and loves me despite everything, but there are still those who don't, and that's fine too. But I'd rather not have the drama anymore. I've grown up, and I don't intend on playing stupid mind games anymore. I'm used to losing people and I'm not one to keep you in my life if you're going to play the blame game. I've had a crazy past two years; heck, I've had a crazy past five years! For a time, I was only thinking about myself. I didn't care what others thought and in the process I hurt a lot of people. But I grew up and changed. My life doesn't consist of myself anymore; instead I am focused on doing everything to the glory of God and raising my kids to do the same. I have a very supportive husband; I thank God for him everyday. He encourages me to be the person I want to be and he helps me as I strive for my goal. I don't want anyone in my life that is going to try to break my family down or apart. When I think of my family that my husband and I have built, I am proud. We have had our share of trials and tribulations, but by God's grace we are becoming a strong household. We are getting ready to make a move across the country, and while I am so excited to be closer to my family, I am still sad that I will have to leave the many godly women I have become so close to through my church. These women have encouraged me and been there for me and my family for a year and these are the influences I want to be around and my children to look up to. I am sure God will lead me to another awesome group of godly women, but I am still sad to be leaving these ones behind. I don't know what the future is going to hold, and quite frankly, I don't want to know. God promises that the future is in His hands and I don't have to worry. He has brought me so far in a little over a year's time, and I know that He is going to continue teaching me and I will continue growing in Him. Life is about change, not about drama. It's not about "he said-she said." I want to be a part of a bigger picture. There are so many people suffering in the this world, so many people with bigger problems than me and that's the bigger picture. It's God's picture.